i just wrote a not very good reply to your what the f... see i think us just went to fast, we spoke like everynight i know but its not the same as being together and because we werent together next to each other a lot of what i thought would change by the time i spoke to you. Us didn’t really exist in the everyday world.
and what was casual became so serious. ive never been in a proper relationship and forever although a nice word and a carefree concept is in actual fact terrifying. I mean with anyone. Even 5 years or whatever. I cant do anything, im not an anything and you see you are a something, youre all worked out.
We’re worlds apart , how would us work? In different countries, different ages different ambitions different wants.
I don’t want to keep you in this limbo keeping torturing you with my writing but by your wtf… I don’t know perhaps it was indignation, perhaps hate
no more i promise