to just keep swimming

i was so excited about ryan air, about flying free for a wee bit, but no . as disappointment would have it i'm grounded and upsetting the world. oh to be back on top! i dont think exams test your intelligence and i dont particularly understand why i find them so difficult. i think you should be made to answer questions on general knowledge and asked to rewire plugs, change hoover bags, hang curtains, boil an egg. useful type things. it was going to be at the end of march. to welcome chocolate back into my life with my lovely. 3 months on that and im free forever. gosh like a prison sentence. i am condemned to the end of june; 31/2 months mentally hard labour at a desk. it could be a lot worse i know, but have made another shocking discovery. that i cannot punctuate. i mean not this i havent been trying but my work in general. so much to complain for. so much my very own doing; tis lovely to blame others but its only me to credit this time.
i cannot apologise any more for i've hit rock bottom.